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This post is for those of you who have been following my Weight Loss Series. I have some news about this series and I owe it to you who are following it to let you know my change of plans.
But first, a little backstory for anyone just falling upon this post. Back in September I decided that I was long overdue to face my food and weight issues head on. I wrote about it here and made a commitment to lose 30 pounds. More than that, I made a commitment to do it publicly and post weekly updates.
Which I did. For a few weeks.
It started off pretty good, with Ian and I doing an awesome Wellness Program by Kris Carr. It was a 21 day whole foods, anti-inflammatory, vegan diet and we loved it. I even lost my first 8-9 pounds or so, so I was pretty stoked. So my plan was to just continue this until I reached 30 pounds lost. But it didn’t work that way. *insert sad face here, with a little pouting for good measure*
I had a few ups and downs, as most of us do, and then Christmas came. I would have to say that one of the ‘ups’ was that I stayed off of alcohol and meat (seriously! crazy, eh!) all through the holidays, and one of the ‘downs’ was that I lost the battle with sugar – it’s so easy to make excuses at Christmas, right.
But despite the setbacks, I managed to maintain my weight through all the festivities, so that’s not all bad, and by the end of that month I think my total weight loss was around 15 pounds. My spirits remained high and I was determined to get back on track.
It was right around this time (December 31st to be exact) that Ian (DH) decided to sign up for the Ottawa Marathon. He had done a little running off and on over the years and this was something he’s always wanted to do. His longest run at this point was only 10k, but he was pretty sure he could do 42k by the end of May if he could just find a training schedule and get started right away. And so he did. (He’s been blogging about, so if you are interested in a little inspiration and gut-level honesty about what it’s like to train for a full marathon, check out this “First Marathon Series” in the Running category)
Back to me! Although my intention was to ‘get back on track’, a more accurate description might be ‘back and forth, back and forth’. Meaning, I would have good days, not so good days, and just go back and forth with it. The Weekly Updates lapsed into Monthly Updates mostly because there was just nothing to report. By the end of January my weight was holding steady. I tried to explain it away: I’m not trying hard enough, I’m not exercising long enough, I’m not disciplined enough. Don’t get me wrong though, I felt great from eating so well, but I couldn’t deny that I was stuck.
But by the end of February my results were the same: I had hit the Plateau of All Plateaus! The scale was slowly becoming my enemy. My husband would be the first to agree with this sentiment. In fact, I’m pretty sure he feared my relationship with the scale. He could see it in my eye, in my expression when I walked into the room after an encounter with the scale. He wouldn’t dare ask me, but he knew. We both knew.
To make matters worse, in February we re-did the 21 day Kris Carr program, this time as Beta Testers for the new version of her program. Ian lost weight again, but for me, the scale stood still. Completely still.
Now, to be fair, he was doing a CRAZY amount of running. And I really mean crazy! Have you ever trained for or known someone who trained for a marathon? If so, you know exactly what I am talking about. There were mornings when he would be out the door at 6am to run 25k before work, at minus 25℃! It was quite amazing.
And do you know what else is amazing? HE LOST 30 POUNDS! Yes, that’s right. He lost 30 pounds training for this marathon. That wasn’t his goal (Remember? It was MY goal) but he lost it and he looks great and feels great.
Now, this is MY blog so that gives me permission to say whatever I want, right? So I’m going to be honest here. I made a commitment to write about my weight loss and be honest about it, so here it is. For someone who is struggling to lose weight, for a woman who has had 2 kids, quit smoking, gained weight and is quickly approaching menopause (can you say messed up hormones?) I guess I didn’t pick the best time to try to lose this weight. And I am trying to lose it while living with and watching someone else lose it, who didn’t actually set out to lose it.
Am I jealous? TOTALLY!!!!!!!!
Am I angry? TOTALLY!!!!!!!!
Is it hard to watch, listen to, live with? TOTALLY!!!!!!!!
Ok, I said the unthinkable. Phew. How horrible, right?
I said I was going to be honest, and I know that there are people out there who can relate.
Ok ladies, we all know the Golden Rule: Never Diet With A Man. Yes, I know this too. So can you imagine how much worse it feels when that man isn’t even dieting with you, but just happens to lose the exact amount of weight you’ve been so desperate to lose for years!
Lucky for me, he’s pretty much a saint to be working so hard to train for his own goals, while putting up with my weight loss antics and supporting me all along. So together we have come up with a new plan. And here it is, the whole point of this post:
There are 4 parts, as follows:
TOSS THE SCALE:
I have to do this for my own sanity. My goal was to lose 30 pounds and that really hasn’t changed. But underneath that goal is the more important goal of ultimately being at my ideal size, health and fitness level. It’s not about the numbers and it never has been. I wanted to throw out the scale a long time ago but hesitated to do so because of this online 30 pound commitment. So friends, for my own mental health, I have decided to forego the scale and focus strictly on health and fitness, and I know the weight will come off, once I change a few things and stop obsessing over the numbers. Ian was nice enough to hide the scale, somewhere in the house, where he says I will never ever find it.
UP THE FITNESS GOALS:
This is an area I struggle with, so it must be dealt with. If you were to ask me if I am active I would say yes, I spin almost every day. And it would be true. My bike is in the basement, set up on a trainer and for months now I have been spinning about 5 days a week, for 30 minutes each time. Ian has been bugging me THE WHOLE TIME to increase this. I have been arguing that I should lose weight, based on what I’m eating, with NO EXERCISE, so why should I kill myself by going crazy on the bike? Well now. After watching my husband literally ‘run his ass off’ (yes, you should see how small it is now, and no love handles whatsoever!) I can’t deny it any more. I truly need to increase my activity level!! I also need to be honest and admit that my age and hormones might just be a tiny bit different than they used to be, so I just might have to work a ‘tiny’ bit harder. OK, I get it now.
So I’ve started running again! If he can Run His Ass Off, well so can I! I haven’t done a 10k run since I did the Vancouver Sun Run in my twenties, so it’s time to get off my butt and start training for one. It’s been 2 weeks of running now and I already feel smaller and stronger, but I wouldn’t know if the scale would agree, because it’s gone. And I’m happy about that.
GET MY THYROID CHECKED, FINALLY:
I watched an amazing documentary series called ‘The Thyroid Secret’ and learned a lot about the holistic view and treatment of thyroid disease. A huge percentage of the population has undiagnosed thyroid issues, mostly because conventional medicine tests and treats thyroid issues so very differently from holistic practitioners. So I went and had proper blood work done and lo and behold I have a very under active thyroid! It’s not officially hypothyroidism, I’m actually borderline hypo, which means I can easily correct it through diet changes and a few supplements, rather than wait until my results show up as full-blown hypothyroidism and need medication.
NO MORE EXCUSES:
With everything else in place, I have no more excuses. A few weeks ago I found myself talking to a friend about my goals and plans and I heard something kind of disturbing. It sounded like one excuse after another. And it was me talking! I didn’t like how it sounded, and it was really strange to even hear it.
“I can’t spin for longer than 30 minutes cause it hurts my butt!” “I didn’t eat all those cookies that someone else ate, so I should lose weight!” (what?) “Ian can run outside in minus 25℃ but I could NEVER do that because I hate winter.” “I should lose weight cause I’m doing exactly what I’ve done many times before, AND lost weight, so it should work!”
Well, I get it now. I’m listening now. I’m eating thyroid-friendly foods, taking supplements, running longer and harder, and most importantly not making excuses. I don’t have a scale at the moment, so I won’t be writing Regular Weight Loss Updates.
If you’ve been reading these, thank you. I have a passion and commitment to holistic health, wellness and fitness, so I will continue to write on these topics. But my ‘Weight Loss Updates’ will be done for now. But don’t worry, when the time is right, I will let everyone know what has worked and what has not worked, and when I run my 10k I’ll be sure to write about it.
If you’ve made it to the end of this post, thank you for taking the time, and don’t forget to check out some of my other inspiring posts, like these:
Till Next Time,
Keep Going 4Ward!